I have started a program, it is free for 3 months, there is a fee afterward.   It is focused on strengthening mind, body and spirit.  NO, I am not promoting or selling anything which costs money EVER on my site.  I only mention it because I will be sharing some bits of wisdom from it occasionally.

This week it is “I am grounded”. Visualize a big tree with roots deep in the earth. I enjoyed the notion. I thought about trees through the seasons with critters and without, in all kinds of weather. It made me feel better.

Lately, I have not felt grounded at all. It seems like all kinds of surprises keep popping up. a. My BP machine at home is not accurate compared to my office visits. This is a concern. I am on 4 BP meds. (Sorry, yes I have mentioned this before). Solution:. I will bring in the machine to the office next visit and compare readings. It also keeps my BP readings in it so they can see I am being honest. (Although, they say they believe me.). b. My newly diagnosed macular degeneration with inability to drive safely at night. (I have upgraded my prescription for my glasses and taking a recommended supplement daily too) c. This week my Oncologist’s office moved to the Cancer Center. I have been so excited! An opportunity to have more patient support, clinical trials, better care. I actually donated to the construction of the Cancer Center when I was still working at our local hospital. d. They will only access ports for chemo now, not routine blood draws, which for me are at least monthly. I have terrible veins as evidenced by multiple issues with getting IV access /blood drawn for labs my entire adult life, including a visit to our local ED recently. (See previous Blog post) This was an unpleasant surprise! I tried to be nice about it. Of course, the tech who is a really nice person, could not get my blood on the first stick. I tried to be positive and asked this is probably temporary right? She said “no it is forever.”. I’m afraid I soared into the higher atmosphere (not grounded) and said something like I was going to have to talk to my doctor or his nurse practitioner about this and the nurse magically appeared and immediately accessed my port without problem. I had my panties in a wad all-day about this. I needed to dig my roots into the Earth and consider this change in policy. It is not all about me, of course this affects other patients as well. A needle stick is a needle stick so I really don’t care if it is peripheral or per port except the peripheral usually hurts more and usually it requires more than one stick. What is forever anyway? Change is inevitable. So, in the big picture, it is not a major thing. I also asked God for his will to be done about the Cancer Center. They are struggling with many changes, many challenges. I need to trust them.

So, yes I AM GROUNDED! I will keep saying it, over and over and over until I actually get it. Dig my roots into the Earth like soaking my feet in a warm bucket of scented water.