Scattered, Not Buried

October 30, 2019
 macfightsback
I just wrote a check to pay for my cremation. It certainly is a surreal experience. I decided to do it as a gift for my family while I was still feeling pretty good. After I ” dodged the bullet” in August, reality set in.

I am doing pretty well health wise right now so it is a good time. It took longer than I thought because it involved selecting music, readings, pictures ect. I am glad most of it is done now. ( I just need to select pics for the video.). I did not expect to feel so drained. It is mentally, physically and emotionally exhausting. I feel like I need a long nap. So when I finish this blog entry that is what I will do.

It is a good decision and the right thing to do. Seems so wrong to put so much work into an event, without enjoying the benefits. I really don’t buy into those movies where after someone dies, their spirit hangs around for the funeral.

I will be having a Celebration of Life event. I hope what I planned makes someone smile or gives them some comfort. That was my goal all along.
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  • macfightsback

  • I worked as a registered nurse in Critical Care for over 35 years. I retired in 2017. I am single, never married. I have one sister, one brother and I am an aunt. I love animals and nature, especially cats. My Siamese cat, Tiger is my constant companion and joy. I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer in July 2015. I received debulking surgery at that time. I have been through chemotherapy a total of 3 times. I am receiving it now for pulmonary nodules which popped up on my CT scan in April and an area under my left diaphragm which is also positive for cancer. This is my 2nd reoccurence. No symptoms with this reoccurence or the reoccurence I had in 2018. (See what I mean by MY SNEAKY CANCER ) ?

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